Restart journey

It’s day one of National Blog Posting Month (NaBloPoMo) and I’m trying to use it as a tool to dedicate myself to writing again.  Writing has always been how I express myself, work out the toughness inside of me, settle some confusion and look deeper inside to pull out answers I’m seeking.  I’ve made so [&hellip

Day 11: 30... holding+pencil

Today’s challenge is to draw a turning point in your life.  This was easy because it changed everything – the life I had, the thoughts I had, ideas about life and love, my mental state, my emotional state, friends and family etc. I told Janie I was leaving her in May of 2010.  I had [&hellip

Day One lipkisseslarge

It’s been so long since I’ve sat in front of the computer really trying to write.  It feels almost like I’ve forgotten how this works…what my creative process looks like.  It’s going to take me a while to figure out what I’m supposed to be doing here now.  Ever the impatient one, I’m already frustrated [&hellip

UPDATE pills

Here I am! Were you worried I was dead because it’s been a month since I’ve posted? No? Well, then fuck you. You should have been HYSTERICAL like I was a few weeks ago when my sister stopped answering her cell phone for 45 minutes and I was convinced she was dead or kidnapped or [&hellip

I Don’t Know depression

I’m having a hard time.  Mostly I just don’t know what the hell I am doing. It’s funny how you carry around all this baggage from place to place – one relationship or experience to another.  And sometimes you think you’ve let it go and then life comes in and BAM, it slaps you in [&hellip

Urgent Care medical

Oh, you guys. I spent last Friday night with my ex-wife and parents at the emergency room. I know, right? TOTAL PARTY. Best night ever. We got wasted on IV fluids, tongue depressors and that cart full of unlabeled medications.  We just absolutely wrecked the place. After going out to dinner with my family to [&hellip

Briefly junk

Oh, you guys. GOD DAMN. I hate painting. We’re getting the condo all ready to list and it’s paint paint paint all the time and in between we do yard work, cry because a) this is depressing or b)  one of us just had a giant glob of paint drip onto their eyeball, we move [&hellip

Letting Go: Part... divorce-mallet

Ending a relationship is the most insanely complicated experience I can ever imagine.  I work in a law office and there are an abundance of rules and regulations and codes and laws to weave through and yet it is still less complicated than finding your way through the end of a long-term relationship.  Seriously.  This [&hellip

Linsey and Janie... Video
Losing your mind... Feelings

Back in early March I wrote a post called Advanced Self-Loathing on which many people commented such beautiful and kind things that I was overwhelmed.  It started in me a profound change and I spent many months in a process of uncovering parts of myself that I either didn’t know existed, or that didn’t exist [&hellip