Oh, you guys,...

Hey look! I was right. Some days are better than others and today is a better day then yesterday. For example, today my boss brought me a fruit tart. Yesterday: no tart. See how that works? You may want to skip this post and all the others for the last year, especially if you don’t [&hellip

The Demon

As it turns out, divorce is still a complete and total bullshit. BULLSHIT, I TELL YOU! Janie and I are scheduling a mediation because we’re having trouble agreeing on a few key things, so that’s going to be super fun. After that we get to file for the dissolution of our domestic partnership. Since domestic [&hellip

Urgent Care

Oh, you guys. I spent last Friday night with my ex-wife and parents at the emergency room. I know, right? TOTAL PARTY. Best night ever. We got wasted on IV fluids, tongue depressors and that cart full of unlabeled medications.  We just absolutely wrecked the place. After going out to dinner with my family to [&hellip


Engaged in serious conversation about that tortilla chip

Theme Song

( Thanks, Jennifer :* )

Losing your mind...

Back in early March I wrote a post called Advanced Self-Loathing on which many people commented such beautiful and kind things that I was overwhelmed.  It started in me a profound change and I spent many months in a process of uncovering parts of myself that I either didn’t know existed, or that didn’t exist [&hellip


I’ve started and stopped this post no less than fifty times in the last two weeks, and in the last five minutes I have written and rewritten this sentence about nine times. Delete and rewrite. Edit. Delete. Write. I’m slowly driving myself insane. That will become entirely too obvious in the days and weeks to [&hellip

The End

A Dream Lies Dead A dream lies dead here. May you softly go Before this place, and turn away your eyes, Nor seek to know the look of that which dies Importuning Life for life. Walk not in woe, But, for a little, let your step be slow. And, of your mercy, be not sweetly [&hellip

This used to...

I’m having a hard time coping.  With change, with life, with the shit in my head and my heart.  I don’t know how to manage a lot of my own feelings…some new, some so old and ugly.  I alternate between feeling good and feeling shitty, wanting to change and giving up on myself.  Somewhere in [&hellip


I’ve made it a point, on this website, to refrain from any real discussion of my other sibling, with whom I have a very strained relationship, if you can even call it that. I will not go into detail about the things that keep us from speaking to one another, but to say that we [&hellip